I am missing things. I’m missing birthdays and showers and parties and fun. I’m missing phone calls and messages and politely timed responses. I’m missing regular exercise and time to properly assemble myself in the morning and an unchaotic routine. I’m missing car keys, shoes, and that thing I just had 5 minutes ago. I’m […]
I have always dreamed of storms. For years, I’ve seen them approach. They were unbearably colossal; I feared their size more than their wrath. Sudden and dreadful, they closed off the sun. I was always alone, my insides full of defeat. I dream of them still. But they are different now, as am I. I […]
For the past month I go back and forth between being proud of getting so much done and wanting to slack off. When I manage the myriad of daily goals, I want to shout about it to the world! When I tire of plodding through the routine, I want to whine about it too. Slowly, […]
Outside near my office in the city, another tree just quit. When I arrived years ago, there was one dead tree. I remember thinking it looked odd amongst the healthy, manicured ones that lined the sidewalks within perfect squares of dirt. The landscaping surprised and delighted me at first. It just makes me sad now. […]
They have to go first, please. Sometimes I get angry with myself for having held onto them for too long. They kept me afloat when storms raged and aglow when skies darkened. For considerable time I couldn’t have released them because they were effective life support. I sustain myself now. Fairness and pain no longer […]
My Blessing to You I grant you as much joy as you put into the world. No one will ever speak an untrue negative word about you. You won’t be punished for anything you didn’t do, or suffer the loss of that which you earned for yourself. You’ll receive the treatment you bestow, and the […]
We danced for hours. It’s cute that you were still too nervous to give me your number, so you gave it to my friend. I liked the way your hair smelled, too. Sorry I didn’t say that. I’m enjoying our exchange of quips. Sorry I can’t say that. I am terrible at people, and risk, […]
Yesterday: Ate brownies for breakfast. Burnt a 7-minute frozen pizza (lol timers, who needs those?). Did not put on “real” clothes entire day. Found out my employer is being purchased by one I’d have never considered, having heard only horrible things. Office relocation – likely. Benefits nerfing/policy changes – unavoidable. Downsizing – possible. Annual raises […]
08.22.2015 – I dreaded facing this date for months. what I used to think was going to happen I do not recognize the girl in that January photograph – physically, emotionally, or otherwise. The end of the relationship was the end of her too. I don’t mean this as hyperbole. Nothing causes you to peel off […]
Before this past April, I had never lived alone. Nor has my brother. Nor my sister. Nor most of the close friends I polled today; two did for one month. I do have a friend who told me months ago that she lived alone for about a year and it was an enlightening experience. I […]
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I wasn’t sure when I would start blogging again. Would it be a few months or a year or would the time stretch on and on and on indefinitely? I know the answer now. You write when you can’t not write any longer. When the pieces of your heart…
PROMPT: Tell us about a thing you’ll never write about. I’ll never write your name, when I tell the world all about you. I’m vengeful, not petty. When I incarcerate you in my fiction, your misdeeds and mistakes will be laid bare. But I will not fabricate faults or falsify flaws that weren’t yours already. […]
Sometimes I feel like I’m not a person – I’m more like seven people, all clamoring to control my brain for a period of time. Meet the seven Ambers: (1) Save-the-world Amber. The original Amber. Says “Good morning!” and smiles while passing strangers. Unabashedly trusting. Likes: giving people gifts, random acts of kindness, spending time […]
I stood on the deck to bask in the most beautiful weather that summer offers. I watched the clouds drift, carried by a swift, warm breeze. Somewhere down the street, children called out to one another in jovial chase. A butterfly grazed my arm gingerly before continuing along at a leisurely pace. Nature reached a […]
