Like the Wind

I guess I’m glad I didn’t realize when we met so long ago that I would listen some day to your loud struggle for every single shallow breath while I fumble to treat and sooth you without sure answers or enough guidance when you huff, puff, wheeze, sneeze, and pant I barely sleep but when […]

My dear contrarian

Never work harder to convince people (especially yourself) you’re right than you work to be right. Integrity is better than spectators’ support. Successful negotiation is harder than, and superior to, “winning”. Collaboration champions and strengthens truth, which changes minds. Is progress not the end goal? Perhaps it never was for you, if you require opponents […]

Interconversion

They say matter and energy are neither created nor destroyed. That is true of our kind. When we pass, our essence is recombined into the living. The deceased are not simply an addition, though; their spirits multiply our own. In this way, we not only carry our ancestors forward, into the future they could not […]

full cup

for the longest time I conflated success with fulfillment and I defined both with other people’s words (despite what else I could hear) it has taken gargantuan effort to pivot into something better, someone brave but after the tower finished burning and I evacuated into the woods I am whole (which is better than perfect) being […]

Thanks for Fucking Up

And now for a slight change of pace. (And because she likes things that rhyme.) Thanks for Fucking Up To all the fumbling hands before me that didn’t put a ring on hers, I must speak my gratitude for every beautiful day that occurs. Thanks for letting go of the best you’ll ever know. She’s […]

Watch

At what point Should I confess That I only came here To witness the end of your world? I never intended To fall hopelessly in love With the Earth, as it died Or, especially, with you. How could I know Something fading so quickly Could still be so beautiful That I would rather not leave? […]

you, matter

A statistically unlikely miracle composed of stardust and inexplicable life force, and just one among billions of sweaty, hairy flesh-lumps of mostly water. In control of that miraculous, ordinary body, managing it with your very thoughts, and powerless over countless functions that it carries out within you daily. Loving, happy, brave, kind, selfless, and hateful, […]

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The thing about most of what what you watch, do, and achieve___in an addictive box___is that most people don’t really care___and while they may humor you momentarily___they are often impatient___to get back to their own little boxes___to do their own little things___but remember that we made the boxes___and we choose how to fill them___and whether […]

When I say self-starter

When I say self-starter I mean that I can (and often do) face the desperate emptiness of working to finish Something Important in the margins between daily tedium and stressed slumber at an hour I refuse to check on yet another weeknight churning caffeine, sugar, and bile stinking of the day’s labor and self-pity neglecting […]

Refresh

When I need to summon my divinity, I prepare a space first, tidied, cleansed, and welcoming. Hot soaking water, icy drinking water, darkness, punctuated with tea lights. Aromas, ambiance, authors. Sometimes, a visitor, nocturnal feline eyes like fireflies, staring uncertainly, whiskers twitching, a familiar unfamiliar with these rites. Rose quartz isn’t a scent. I drop […]

Switch

Take comfort, dear. Do you think it’s a coincidence Our lives are filled with cycles? Blink, see the external world, Blink, see the internal world. Breathe, take air in, Breathe, put air out. Jumping, Falling. Seasons coming, Seasons going. On, off, On, off.

A Good Start

The moth was solid white like unwalked snow. I thought it was dead on top the stove. I nudged it with a napkin (similar in color, opposite in elegance) and it barely crawled on top. It did not hesitate to try, though. Better the indignity of this poor man’s magic carpet ride to anywhere than […]

you learn some things

I know better than to call a bad person a vulture as if they would do such work with discarded scraps care so little for how they appear and make such a difference in this messy world I know better than to harm a good person with a joke as if masking unkindness with humor […]

annus mirabilis

It was fortunate that my heart broke in the coldest winter. I became an exposed nerve and did not want to face the full force of grief. There was nowhere to go with layers of snow turning the world into a constricted icebox. And I wasn’t brave enough to go nowhere alone yet. So I […]

Priorities

No matter your beauty, making the sole source of your self-esteem your physical form over the course of a lifetime is like buying a brand new car and treating it like your savings plan. It depreciates. Bank on other things. That’s not to say that you should treat your body like it does not matter […]

Bootstraps and Facts

Just to offer an alternative perspective to this endless need to prove that we all accomplished everything on our own despite insurmountable odds: I had help. I had a lot of help at various times from my family, friends, neighbors, teachers, colleagues, managers, and total strangers (especially authors). Once I had help from a random […]

Let me know if you need anything

“Let me know if you need anything.” Most people say it automatically. Some people mean it, with caveats. A few just don’t know what else to say in order to stave off an uncomfortable sense of helplessness. But we aren’t them. When I tell you “anything”, you know. I will remote order you dinner when […]